♥ post 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future

OOOHHHH, this is hard. I don't see myself marrying anyone yet. No one is worthy! YET. Bwahahaha!

Well, honestly, I thought of takuyaki(gatb, you still remember this codename? oh well, it's kind of obvious anyway. haha) as my future before. hahahaha. I mean, I really like him and he had qualities of the ideal husband I wanted. ish. I actually compare him to other guys and I look for the qualities he has to other guys. So yeah, that was before. I can still see it now though if ever >:D< naks. hahaha. Pero ka.recover nako ha! lol. What qualities you wonder? EVERYTHING. naks. hahaha. Joke lang. I really like his confidence and that he is a christian. Very important quality of a soon-to-be-husband they have fear of the Lord.

Another person I thought of seeing myself marrying (again, this was before. Though I can still see this now. HAHA. But this doesn't mean anything at the moment.) is Perotin(gatb, if you wonderin just ask sa group message sa fb haha). Because he is a christian, and I've known him for a long time so I'm really comfortable with him. hahaha.

So what I'm really looking for in a guy to marry someday is a man who has a relationship with God. We share the same beliefs and moral values which makes the marriage easier to get by and sure to have a blessed and happy one. I always heed my mother's advice to find a guy who is christian, and you will not regret it. Don't look for the appearance or the personality, popularity, wealth or power, or your ideal/type because if he is not christian your marriage is sure to have some problems. Mama would tell me stories about how Papa is so not her type, he is the complete opposite of it. But because she listened and obeyed God, she never ever regretted marrying Papa. She would always declare how happy she is with my dad and that she wants us to have that happiness someday when I too will get married. Looks and ideal is just a bonus if you marry the person God gives you. I want to have mama and papa's happiness too that's why I won't settle for looks alone, whoever God gives me, he will be the best for me.

Right now, no one fits the description of my soon to be bebe~ but it's okay. I'm not in a hurry. TRUE LOVE WAITS!
EXPERIENCE  THE LOVE OF GOD FIRST!

Okay, this was probably the last time I saw Vidcel my classmate from elementary. 

This morning I received a text I would never expect in like 30 years. I was shocked at the news that Vidcel is no longer living. He got into a motorcycle accident. 

I really don't know what to say or what to feel. I feel sad, pity and guilt. 

*sigh* We will never really know what will happen or when will our lives end. I remember all the times and memories I had with Vidcel. He was sort of a "bugoy" kid, he's also papansin and feeler. But I know deep down he's also good and funny. Though it takes time to see it. I remember bullying him before but he also bullied me. We teased each other a lot that there was a time I actually liked him as a crush but only for a short time. hahaha. Knowing that he's gone now, that I can never see him again but in my memories makes me feel sad :(

I had hurt him a few times before and it makes me feel guilty, but in the end he forgave me and that gave me a different view of him. So yeah, it's so sad to have someone you know pass away. I wish I could have been a better friend and classmate. 

I'm also quite frustrated because I know his personality. I know he drinks, smokes and goes to these motor racing things at dawn. He thinks he's cool because of those and he's in a fraternity. I'm so mad that he made these stupid decisions of buying a motorcycle and having vices. It shows that he's spoiled by his parents *ehemmomehem*. It's so sad to think that the mother is alone. His dad died like 2 or 3 years ago and now... *sigh*. It just saddens me. 

He could've had a future ahead of him. He could've had done something more in his life. But now it's gone. And he's gone.

I know Vidcel would not see this but I would want to say something if he was here.

HOY BUANGA KA. SAMOKA NIMO OI. NGANO MAGPA.CHUI CHUI PAMAN KA PARA SA UBAN TAO. KABALO KA NGA DELIKADO PERO GUSTO JUD KA NGA COOL KA TANAWON. DAYON KARUN? GI.BYAAN NAMI NIMO :(
DI KO KA.TUO NGA NAHITABO NI. Hahai.
Dili na gani kaayo ta ga.kita nya karun di najud ta magkita. :(

Vidcel, sorry sa mga butang nga ako gi.buhat sauna nga na.hurt ka. I wish I could have been a better friend to you. 

REST IN PEACE. We will miss you 

Offense beybeh

Okay, so this is my first time to get a minor offense cause I went to school with a dark violet bra and the guard sort of caught me (wow ha, ang linaw ng mga mata mo ate guard.) So she took my I.D. so she could take it to the Student's affairs office to have me punished for my offense. And the stupid thing is I went out of school to eat and went back again and she asked me where's my I.D. and I said she took it and she asked why she took it. Ugh, nainis ako dun. So ibig sabihin napansin mo bra ko kanina tas pagbalik ko afterlunch di mo na napansin!? It's not even noticeable D: UGH. Now I have to do service hours for my minor offense D: HASSLE PRE. HASSLE.

So yeah anyway. That's all. Kind of OA, di talaga sya halata pero sinuot ko eh so I guess I have to pay the price. hahaha. tsk. BAHALA KAYO SAO, MAGBLACK BRA AKO BUKAS. HAHAHA.

Just so you guys know, we are not allowed to wear colored bras under our uniform. Dapat white o flesh colored. haha.

Oh grandma

I just thought of writing about this randomly. This was taken last Dec 28, 2012 at Oro Gardens cemetery. That guy standing there is my Grandpa. He's probably talking to Grandma's grave. She died last year February. Since Grandma's death Grandpa has been worse. He's greedy and selfish most of the time but there are times that he is also nice. And now he has this fling with this young woman, I don't know if he's taking it seriously but I know the woman just wants his money. It just saddens me, I know grandpa misses grandma soooo much. He really loves grandma like crazy. But why does he do these things? Why look for another woman or what? I mean, it's okay I guess since the vows say "till death do us part." but with a younger woman!? (I heard she's around 20). 

Looking back at my grandparents, I can really see how happy and super in love they are even though sometimes they fight and argue but they always find a reason to make peace. I love to have a marriage like theirs, one that surpasses time. They grew old together and they do everything together. Grandpa is not used to being alone. Grandma was always with him, my mother once told me that whenever grandma is away for business trips, grandpa would always check the calender and count the days left till his darling arrives. That is so sweet. I really admire the love they show to each other through the years. Grandma was like an angel to grandpa, she would make him do stuff that are good for him like to socialize, to give to people and to join church activities etc. And he would do it, because he loved her and wanted her to be happy. 

So anyway, I don't know where I'm going with this anymore, I just don't want grandpa to do stupid things like go to other women and give them money or what. But then again, I don't know how it feels to lose a lover and be left behind. I'm sure he's still sort of hurting and recovering from grandma's death. All we do now is understand him. My mom and her siblings get hurt sometimes when they hear news about grandpa texting, calling or having a date with his fling woman. But we all try to understand him. I miss grandma too. I really wish she were still alive. She didn't get to see me become a music student or attend my debut recital. She would have been proud of me. She encouraged me to play music, she is one of the reasons why I decided to take up music. Grandpa misses her so much, I hope he recovers .

P.S. hahaha, murag drama kaayo akong post pero wala lang. nice man jud ang pic so gi.himoan nako og post. hahaha :D peace out! 

Christmas Vacation.

I know this is too late. Ugh, I've been wanting to post since January 1. But there were so many things hindering me. haha. So I'll post now even though it's too late. HAHA

So of course I went back to my city! Cagayan de Oro! I spent christmas there with the family :)

Before I went back, I almost went to Puerto princessa. I was already in the plane. Good thing I heard the announcement saying its going to Puerto princesa. Wew. That would have been... interesting if I have continued. HAHAHA.

My family picked me up in the airport and then we went to centrio for a while :D

Aaaw, my sisters are so big now :D

ERMERGERD. I MISSED LECHON. HAHA

We chilled at our farm which doesn't look so good.

I bought myself cute earrings ! I have treble clefs too but I think I like these more.

I attended Viel's debut! :D

I even saw Sir Sheen. xD

Bonding with my beybehs.

♥ post 08- Short term goals for this month and why

SHORT TERM GOALS.

So hopefully, I could actually get this done.

1.) To finish my sonata and valse.
* The piano exams are coming up soon and I hope and pray I can finish all my pieces. I haven't memorized one yet. T_T Lord help.
2.) Memorize my inventions
* Yeah, so hopefully I can level up to sinfonias and might play that in the exams instead of invetions. But I think it's not possible yet. haha
3.) Do well in mid terms
* I must study study and practice, I want to keep being a dean's listah. haha
4.) Jog at least twice a week. <- HA, I doubt this but at least I thought of doing it. hahaha
* I really need exercise. I feel my body losing its awesomeness and I can't afford losing my awesomeness. xD
5.) Practice the piano accompaniments for the PREDIS kids.
* Cause me and Ella are suppose to accompany them. soon. O_O hehe
6.) Save Money!
* Just cause I want and also I'm broke. hehe

That's all! :P

♥ post 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one post and why

I want to switch lives with a guy! Hahaha. Preferably a good-looking one. Maybe Danielle Padilla? ahahaha. NO.
Say, maybe my ex-classmate Sebastian. (GATB: idk if you remember him from my last blog or from the message thing. You know, the bad punk dude. hahaha)
I chose him because he's a guy... and good-looking. HAHA. Plus we live in a totally different world. he's sort of an underground rockstar with all the party stuff going on (I can't say drugs and girls. LOL. cause I don't really know if he does..) and the many gigs they have with his band everywhere.

I won't want that kind of life though. It's not worth living for. But this is just for one post right? hahaha.
If we switch lives I'm sure to experience things as a guy (not the churva thing though, other things). i'd probably hit on girls and feel all cool. I always wanted to know what it feels like for guys to like girls. I mean is it by nature that they like so many at the same time? Though girls also do that, but we know that we only have one favorite. But they flirt with many girls, do they like one girl at the end of the day? Or try all and see who they like the most? I also want to style guy's hair and dress awesomely cause it's easier to dress up guys than girls. hahaha. And guys can also eat so much and still have abs. >w< I want to feel my own guy abs. bwahahaha. Then there's this thing about courting girls, the guys do all the effort but I guess it's also hard. They never know if the girl will say yes in the end. hahaha.

*sigh* oh the things a guy can do. But you know what, in the end, I'd still want to be me ;) HAHA
Cause I am awesooooome~
But I think if I were a guy, I'd also be awesoooome~ :D hahaha

PS, sorry guys. This feels like a nonsense post. bwahahaha