Happy Manila day!

So today is Manila and I haven't been posting because I am lazy and I forget about this blog often. Anyway, let us do a review of my life so far! :D

2nd year life:

I'm so happy and blessed and by God's grace I'm already on my 2nd year at St scho school of music. I've seen the first years and it feels weird sometimes to see new faces because I'm used to being the freshman. But I've gone used to it now. Theyre okay but so few. From our batch of 50 to theirs of around 17 or something. And the bad news, no gwapo. HAHA. I mean, I guess there is but not really? So yeah. 

I'm really hyped up for this year for some reason :) 

Ella bebe leaving:

So my closest friend in school is leaving for the U.S. this year that's why she didn't enroll this sem. And I miss her sometimes. I'm not used to being alone. hahaha. I mean I feel a little lonely, even though Deki, Pen and Alex are there, it's just not the same without her. Oh well. I wish her the best in states! And hopefully she'll come back like Deki. HAHAHA. 

Another thing, I have this unknown motivation or determination to get better at my piano! So I'm so excited what God's gonna do for me this year! Woooooh!

I guess that's it? hmm. yeahp. haha

Taxi drivers

I am officially scared of taxi drivers, especially here in Manila.

Earlier I went to church without my church friend cause he has to be there early for the worship team cause he's a guitarist there now. I didn't know how to commute going there so I rode a taxi. While going there, the taxi was so drama not knowing where the place is.

In the end he went around then i told him its going to Rockwell yung place so he sort of knew na where to go. Then he started talking to me! Like oh ehm. WHY. He was asking questions like "Mestiza ka ba?...taga-san ka?... Ngayon lang kayo magkita sa boyfriend mo?....may asawa ka?....Anong number mo? text kita..."
Ugh, questions like those. hahaha. Turns out he's from Butuan so bisaya din sya. He started talking to be in bisaya. And good thing I didn't have a ballpen so I couldn't give him my number. LOL. wooooh.

So yeah, I hate it when they try to casual talk me. UGH. Thank God I got to my destination just in time. haha.

♥ post 30- Who are you?

The question that seems easy to answer but it's really not. Sometimes people think they know themselves but in truth, they don't know half themselves until they hear it from other people. Other people know though, who they are and what not. On the other hand, I think I pretty much know myself. Like probably 3/4 of myself anyway. hahaha.

So who am I? I am a nineteen year old girl who loves music. Daughter of Alger and Sue Maandig, Elder sister to Myles and Shane. I go to a music school here in Manila. I have awesome friends here as well as in my hometown CdeO and also in places like in Aussie. ;)
I love food, and I spoil myself when it comes to that. I don't usually care about my weight when I was in CdeO but ever since I started school in Manila, I've been fattening. Not a good thing. So I watch out now.
I'm an okay artist, I make decent artwork and rarely awesome ones.
I'm a pianist in progress, I just realized that it's not easy becoming a good one. It takes time, discipline and sacrifice. Lots of those. Knowing myself, I'm a pretty passive person and lazy most of the time. I really dislike that part of being me, it gets really irritating sometimes. So Imma work that part of me so that I can level up faster in piano :D
Hmm, I think mature most of the time. Hey, I'm nineteen now I have to think out from my 17 and 18 year old self. So yeah. I'm starting to think more mature but sometimes I just feel so immature :( I don't know why. I feel like I'll forever think like my 17 year old self. hahaha.
I'm a very shy person and so I tend to be very quiet but when I'm around close friends especially the GATB, well I'm not shy. hahaha. But most of the time I'm really quiet. I know I lack confidence, so Imma work on that too.
What else? I'm getting lazy nah. So I'll leave it here. hahaha.

At least I made a long ish post right? hahahaha :P

♥ post 29- In this past month, what have you learned

LOL, I must finish this thing.

I learned not to make the minor subjects major.

Practice a lot.

Piano pieces cannot be crammed.

It's okay to make mistakes, stop crying over performances. hahaha

That's it. I don't really know what else to put. hahaha

I can't sleep

I don't know what's wrong with me these days. Especially this summer. I can't seem to sleep!? ugghh. Been going on for like 4 days now. I now sleep around 1am to 2am, where was this when I needed it during school days?!

So anyway, since I'm so bored, this is a random bored post.
Holy week for me is so boring and uneventful. I envy my friends and churchmates who are at family camp right now :( I wish I was there. I wanna go home now. Haay.
But I have to do better on piano before I can go home and relax. I will not repeat the same mistake last sem. Tsk. I hope I can do this. Soo, I don't have anything specific going on.
I'm glad I'm turning 2nd year now, I really hope I pass NSTP. Gosh. I hate NSTP. I never knew I could hate a subject(not even a subject) so much. I'm going to go nuts if I don't pass that. UGH.
I feel kind of envious with my other batchmates. I mean, they're going in to their 3rd year next sem and I'm still going to my 2nd. It's kind of a bummer for me. I'm so behind in many ways. They're gonna graduate soon and I have 4 more years to go. Plus I'm going to take my masters after I graduate. I don't want to think too much about it. I just wanna enjoy my student life for now. hahaha.

Okay. I guess that's it. Wow. This is so nonesense. hahaha. Kbye :D

Summer Rain

Hi guys, it's been a long time since I posted. Really long time. Finally the stress and pressure is over and I made it to St. Scholastica's College for a year now! I can't believe a school year has passed, it feels so weird but nice. Time really flies sooo fast.

In my experience in St. Scho, I learned a lot and met a lot of nice people! I think I have changed a little through out the school year. I became less lazy, I started thinking about other people in terms of their talents and attitudes, I'm becoming less passive too. I'm so happy to have met great friends in school, they make bad times seem worthwhile. Hideki's going back to Japan for good now, that's quite sad for us. I learned a lot from Deki, I hope he does good in Japan. I will surely miss him. hahaha

I now know what to do in the next school year. I must not make minor subjects major. It's really hard to find time to practice if I do that. And I must really practice whenever I can! So yeah, I'm excited for the next sem. I will show them what I can do, that I can also be good in piano. I will also improve on my confidence cause it's messing up with my talent in piano, I can't be the best I can if I'm so shy. hehehe. I must be the performer! hehehe

So this summer, I'm not going home yet. I shall practice piano so I'll be advance! hahaha.

Konting tiis nalang

So this is just short, I just feel like blogging in the middle of my break from practice.
I am so pressured right now that I could cry. Applied exams are next week and I don't memorize me pieces. Ugh. How did I memorize my pieces last sem!? I hate feeling stressed. I just want this sem to finish now. Huhuhu. There's just a lot of extra stuff this sem. SOM chorale, PREDIS, Comm arts paper, NSTP and P.E. stuff. Ugh. I guess I didn't manage my time well. But my weakness really is memorization. Another factor may be that my pieces are harder and longer so it's really difficult to memorize :(

I hope I can do this. I know with God, anything is possible! I'll just do my best and God will do the rest. Wooh! :D

♥ post 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future

OOOHHHH, this is hard. I don't see myself marrying anyone yet. No one is worthy! YET. Bwahahaha!

Well, honestly, I thought of takuyaki(gatb, you still remember this codename? oh well, it's kind of obvious anyway. haha) as my future before. hahahaha. I mean, I really like him and he had qualities of the ideal husband I wanted. ish. I actually compare him to other guys and I look for the qualities he has to other guys. So yeah, that was before. I can still see it now though if ever >:D< naks. hahaha. Pero ka.recover nako ha! lol. What qualities you wonder? EVERYTHING. naks. hahaha. Joke lang. I really like his confidence and that he is a christian. Very important quality of a soon-to-be-husband they have fear of the Lord.

Another person I thought of seeing myself marrying (again, this was before. Though I can still see this now. HAHA. But this doesn't mean anything at the moment.) is Perotin(gatb, if you wonderin just ask sa group message sa fb haha). Because he is a christian, and I've known him for a long time so I'm really comfortable with him. hahaha.

So what I'm really looking for in a guy to marry someday is a man who has a relationship with God. We share the same beliefs and moral values which makes the marriage easier to get by and sure to have a blessed and happy one. I always heed my mother's advice to find a guy who is christian, and you will not regret it. Don't look for the appearance or the personality, popularity, wealth or power, or your ideal/type because if he is not christian your marriage is sure to have some problems. Mama would tell me stories about how Papa is so not her type, he is the complete opposite of it. But because she listened and obeyed God, she never ever regretted marrying Papa. She would always declare how happy she is with my dad and that she wants us to have that happiness someday when I too will get married. Looks and ideal is just a bonus if you marry the person God gives you. I want to have mama and papa's happiness too that's why I won't settle for looks alone, whoever God gives me, he will be the best for me.

Right now, no one fits the description of my soon to be bebe~ but it's okay. I'm not in a hurry. TRUE LOVE WAITS!
EXPERIENCE  THE LOVE OF GOD FIRST!

Okay, this was probably the last time I saw Vidcel my classmate from elementary. 

This morning I received a text I would never expect in like 30 years. I was shocked at the news that Vidcel is no longer living. He got into a motorcycle accident. 

I really don't know what to say or what to feel. I feel sad, pity and guilt. 

*sigh* We will never really know what will happen or when will our lives end. I remember all the times and memories I had with Vidcel. He was sort of a "bugoy" kid, he's also papansin and feeler. But I know deep down he's also good and funny. Though it takes time to see it. I remember bullying him before but he also bullied me. We teased each other a lot that there was a time I actually liked him as a crush but only for a short time. hahaha. Knowing that he's gone now, that I can never see him again but in my memories makes me feel sad :(

I had hurt him a few times before and it makes me feel guilty, but in the end he forgave me and that gave me a different view of him. So yeah, it's so sad to have someone you know pass away. I wish I could have been a better friend and classmate. 

I'm also quite frustrated because I know his personality. I know he drinks, smokes and goes to these motor racing things at dawn. He thinks he's cool because of those and he's in a fraternity. I'm so mad that he made these stupid decisions of buying a motorcycle and having vices. It shows that he's spoiled by his parents *ehemmomehem*. It's so sad to think that the mother is alone. His dad died like 2 or 3 years ago and now... *sigh*. It just saddens me. 

He could've had a future ahead of him. He could've had done something more in his life. But now it's gone. And he's gone.

I know Vidcel would not see this but I would want to say something if he was here.

HOY BUANGA KA. SAMOKA NIMO OI. NGANO MAGPA.CHUI CHUI PAMAN KA PARA SA UBAN TAO. KABALO KA NGA DELIKADO PERO GUSTO JUD KA NGA COOL KA TANAWON. DAYON KARUN? GI.BYAAN NAMI NIMO :(
DI KO KA.TUO NGA NAHITABO NI. Hahai.
Dili na gani kaayo ta ga.kita nya karun di najud ta magkita. :(

Vidcel, sorry sa mga butang nga ako gi.buhat sauna nga na.hurt ka. I wish I could have been a better friend to you. 

REST IN PEACE. We will miss you 

Offense beybeh

Okay, so this is my first time to get a minor offense cause I went to school with a dark violet bra and the guard sort of caught me (wow ha, ang linaw ng mga mata mo ate guard.) So she took my I.D. so she could take it to the Student's affairs office to have me punished for my offense. And the stupid thing is I went out of school to eat and went back again and she asked me where's my I.D. and I said she took it and she asked why she took it. Ugh, nainis ako dun. So ibig sabihin napansin mo bra ko kanina tas pagbalik ko afterlunch di mo na napansin!? It's not even noticeable D: UGH. Now I have to do service hours for my minor offense D: HASSLE PRE. HASSLE.

So yeah anyway. That's all. Kind of OA, di talaga sya halata pero sinuot ko eh so I guess I have to pay the price. hahaha. tsk. BAHALA KAYO SAO, MAGBLACK BRA AKO BUKAS. HAHAHA.

Just so you guys know, we are not allowed to wear colored bras under our uniform. Dapat white o flesh colored. haha.

Oh grandma

I just thought of writing about this randomly. This was taken last Dec 28, 2012 at Oro Gardens cemetery. That guy standing there is my Grandpa. He's probably talking to Grandma's grave. She died last year February. Since Grandma's death Grandpa has been worse. He's greedy and selfish most of the time but there are times that he is also nice. And now he has this fling with this young woman, I don't know if he's taking it seriously but I know the woman just wants his money. It just saddens me, I know grandpa misses grandma soooo much. He really loves grandma like crazy. But why does he do these things? Why look for another woman or what? I mean, it's okay I guess since the vows say "till death do us part." but with a younger woman!? (I heard she's around 20). 

Looking back at my grandparents, I can really see how happy and super in love they are even though sometimes they fight and argue but they always find a reason to make peace. I love to have a marriage like theirs, one that surpasses time. They grew old together and they do everything together. Grandpa is not used to being alone. Grandma was always with him, my mother once told me that whenever grandma is away for business trips, grandpa would always check the calender and count the days left till his darling arrives. That is so sweet. I really admire the love they show to each other through the years. Grandma was like an angel to grandpa, she would make him do stuff that are good for him like to socialize, to give to people and to join church activities etc. And he would do it, because he loved her and wanted her to be happy. 

So anyway, I don't know where I'm going with this anymore, I just don't want grandpa to do stupid things like go to other women and give them money or what. But then again, I don't know how it feels to lose a lover and be left behind. I'm sure he's still sort of hurting and recovering from grandma's death. All we do now is understand him. My mom and her siblings get hurt sometimes when they hear news about grandpa texting, calling or having a date with his fling woman. But we all try to understand him. I miss grandma too. I really wish she were still alive. She didn't get to see me become a music student or attend my debut recital. She would have been proud of me. She encouraged me to play music, she is one of the reasons why I decided to take up music. Grandpa misses her so much, I hope he recovers .

P.S. hahaha, murag drama kaayo akong post pero wala lang. nice man jud ang pic so gi.himoan nako og post. hahaha :D peace out! 

Christmas Vacation.

I know this is too late. Ugh, I've been wanting to post since January 1. But there were so many things hindering me. haha. So I'll post now even though it's too late. HAHA

So of course I went back to my city! Cagayan de Oro! I spent christmas there with the family :)

Before I went back, I almost went to Puerto princessa. I was already in the plane. Good thing I heard the announcement saying its going to Puerto princesa. Wew. That would have been... interesting if I have continued. HAHAHA.

My family picked me up in the airport and then we went to centrio for a while :D

Aaaw, my sisters are so big now :D

ERMERGERD. I MISSED LECHON. HAHA

We chilled at our farm which doesn't look so good.

I bought myself cute earrings ! I have treble clefs too but I think I like these more.

I attended Viel's debut! :D

I even saw Sir Sheen. xD

Bonding with my beybehs.

♥ post 08- Short term goals for this month and why

SHORT TERM GOALS.

So hopefully, I could actually get this done.

1.) To finish my sonata and valse.
* The piano exams are coming up soon and I hope and pray I can finish all my pieces. I haven't memorized one yet. T_T Lord help.
2.) Memorize my inventions
* Yeah, so hopefully I can level up to sinfonias and might play that in the exams instead of invetions. But I think it's not possible yet. haha
3.) Do well in mid terms
* I must study study and practice, I want to keep being a dean's listah. haha
4.) Jog at least twice a week. <- HA, I doubt this but at least I thought of doing it. hahaha
* I really need exercise. I feel my body losing its awesomeness and I can't afford losing my awesomeness. xD
5.) Practice the piano accompaniments for the PREDIS kids.
* Cause me and Ella are suppose to accompany them. soon. O_O hehe
6.) Save Money!
* Just cause I want and also I'm broke. hehe

That's all! :P

♥ post 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one post and why

I want to switch lives with a guy! Hahaha. Preferably a good-looking one. Maybe Danielle Padilla? ahahaha. NO.
Say, maybe my ex-classmate Sebastian. (GATB: idk if you remember him from my last blog or from the message thing. You know, the bad punk dude. hahaha)
I chose him because he's a guy... and good-looking. HAHA. Plus we live in a totally different world. he's sort of an underground rockstar with all the party stuff going on (I can't say drugs and girls. LOL. cause I don't really know if he does..) and the many gigs they have with his band everywhere.

I won't want that kind of life though. It's not worth living for. But this is just for one post right? hahaha.
If we switch lives I'm sure to experience things as a guy (not the churva thing though, other things). i'd probably hit on girls and feel all cool. I always wanted to know what it feels like for guys to like girls. I mean is it by nature that they like so many at the same time? Though girls also do that, but we know that we only have one favorite. But they flirt with many girls, do they like one girl at the end of the day? Or try all and see who they like the most? I also want to style guy's hair and dress awesomely cause it's easier to dress up guys than girls. hahaha. And guys can also eat so much and still have abs. >w< I want to feel my own guy abs. bwahahaha. Then there's this thing about courting girls, the guys do all the effort but I guess it's also hard. They never know if the girl will say yes in the end. hahaha.

*sigh* oh the things a guy can do. But you know what, in the end, I'd still want to be me ;) HAHA
Cause I am awesooooome~
But I think if I were a guy, I'd also be awesoooome~ :D hahaha

PS, sorry guys. This feels like a nonsense post. bwahahaha