Respawned

Oh ehm, I have been gone so long. hahaha. Well, because of obvious circumstances: Laziness, Busy sched, totally forgot about this blog until GATB kept mentioning in our message convos and I forgot which account this was so good thing I remembered the password and email. 

Okay, a short or not short update on my life for the past year. It's been 1 year and 1 month since I updated. hahaha. 

So summer 2014 was quite long for me because it was 2 months vacation. I taught piano and drawing and painting to children in Bright Rock. It was okay though it was mostly boring and I only kept on passing the time with my students. At least I got a salary which I don't even know how I spent it cause now it's gone :( lol. I don't know if I mentioned this before to GATB, but my  mom was planning on working in Indonesia because there were many benefits and she could have a her masters there for free, plus her children can go to that International school for free if she would go. But her elder brother/boss, did not allow her to go because she would be leaving the BRS and he doesn't trust anyone else to handle the school. So it was sad, cause we wanted her to go and a lot of people wanted her to go but she didn't. Ugh. So anyway, I'm sure God has another plan for us, I wanted my mom to go so she could support my studies and also for Myles cause our course is really expensive :( But I will have to trust on God's provision and plan. I know he won't let us go to poverty. hahaha. 
So yeah, that Indonesia plan was cancelled, so Myles and I are now living together in our Uncle's house in Manila. It's been great really, I love having her here, it is less awkward and less quiet in the house. Plus, she's like my personal yaya. bwahahaha. I can order someone around >:) lol Myles is doing well so far, she's still adjusting but she is having fun. Everybody says we have the same voice, it's quite amusing. Haha

So now about me, lately I've been down and demotivated because I am now on my 3rd year in this music course but I don't seem to progress in my instrument. So it made me moody, worrisome and very lazy. LOL. I mean not lazy, just not in the mood to practice. I don't know why, I kept on thinking about the future, and I fear of what will happen. A lot of people are expecting a lot from me, so that also adds to the pressure. But last week, I watched a piano concert of a pianist I really admire since I was younger, and that concert really helped me up again. So now I guess I am okay, I am more motivated to practice now, I can't turn back on my course. All my friends say I'm going through a phase, so I should not give up :) 
So I guess that's it ? :D

And one last thing, I'm so excited to see my homie Ezzy bebe!!! hahaha. After 4 years? woooooh!

Happy Manila day!

So today is Manila and I haven't been posting because I am lazy and I forget about this blog often. Anyway, let us do a review of my life so far! :D

2nd year life:

I'm so happy and blessed and by God's grace I'm already on my 2nd year at St scho school of music. I've seen the first years and it feels weird sometimes to see new faces because I'm used to being the freshman. But I've gone used to it now. Theyre okay but so few. From our batch of 50 to theirs of around 17 or something. And the bad news, no gwapo. HAHA. I mean, I guess there is but not really? So yeah. 

I'm really hyped up for this year for some reason :) 

Ella bebe leaving:

So my closest friend in school is leaving for the U.S. this year that's why she didn't enroll this sem. And I miss her sometimes. I'm not used to being alone. hahaha. I mean I feel a little lonely, even though Deki, Pen and Alex are there, it's just not the same without her. Oh well. I wish her the best in states! And hopefully she'll come back like Deki. HAHAHA. 

Another thing, I have this unknown motivation or determination to get better at my piano! So I'm so excited what God's gonna do for me this year! Woooooh!

I guess that's it? hmm. yeahp. haha

Taxi drivers

I am officially scared of taxi drivers, especially here in Manila.

Earlier I went to church without my church friend cause he has to be there early for the worship team cause he's a guitarist there now. I didn't know how to commute going there so I rode a taxi. While going there, the taxi was so drama not knowing where the place is.

In the end he went around then i told him its going to Rockwell yung place so he sort of knew na where to go. Then he started talking to me! Like oh ehm. WHY. He was asking questions like "Mestiza ka ba?...taga-san ka?... Ngayon lang kayo magkita sa boyfriend mo?....may asawa ka?....Anong number mo? text kita..."
Ugh, questions like those. hahaha. Turns out he's from Butuan so bisaya din sya. He started talking to be in bisaya. And good thing I didn't have a ballpen so I couldn't give him my number. LOL. wooooh.

So yeah, I hate it when they try to casual talk me. UGH. Thank God I got to my destination just in time. haha.

♥ post 30- Who are you?

The question that seems easy to answer but it's really not. Sometimes people think they know themselves but in truth, they don't know half themselves until they hear it from other people. Other people know though, who they are and what not. On the other hand, I think I pretty much know myself. Like probably 3/4 of myself anyway. hahaha.

So who am I? I am a nineteen year old girl who loves music. Daughter of Alger and Sue Maandig, Elder sister to Myles and Shane. I go to a music school here in Manila. I have awesome friends here as well as in my hometown CdeO and also in places like in Aussie. ;)
I love food, and I spoil myself when it comes to that. I don't usually care about my weight when I was in CdeO but ever since I started school in Manila, I've been fattening. Not a good thing. So I watch out now.
I'm an okay artist, I make decent artwork and rarely awesome ones.
I'm a pianist in progress, I just realized that it's not easy becoming a good one. It takes time, discipline and sacrifice. Lots of those. Knowing myself, I'm a pretty passive person and lazy most of the time. I really dislike that part of being me, it gets really irritating sometimes. So Imma work that part of me so that I can level up faster in piano :D
Hmm, I think mature most of the time. Hey, I'm nineteen now I have to think out from my 17 and 18 year old self. So yeah. I'm starting to think more mature but sometimes I just feel so immature :( I don't know why. I feel like I'll forever think like my 17 year old self. hahaha.
I'm a very shy person and so I tend to be very quiet but when I'm around close friends especially the GATB, well I'm not shy. hahaha. But most of the time I'm really quiet. I know I lack confidence, so Imma work on that too.
What else? I'm getting lazy nah. So I'll leave it here. hahaha.

At least I made a long ish post right? hahahaha :P

♥ post 29- In this past month, what have you learned

LOL, I must finish this thing.

I learned not to make the minor subjects major.

Practice a lot.

Piano pieces cannot be crammed.

It's okay to make mistakes, stop crying over performances. hahaha

That's it. I don't really know what else to put. hahaha

I can't sleep

I don't know what's wrong with me these days. Especially this summer. I can't seem to sleep!? ugghh. Been going on for like 4 days now. I now sleep around 1am to 2am, where was this when I needed it during school days?!

So anyway, since I'm so bored, this is a random bored post.
Holy week for me is so boring and uneventful. I envy my friends and churchmates who are at family camp right now :( I wish I was there. I wanna go home now. Haay.
But I have to do better on piano before I can go home and relax. I will not repeat the same mistake last sem. Tsk. I hope I can do this. Soo, I don't have anything specific going on.
I'm glad I'm turning 2nd year now, I really hope I pass NSTP. Gosh. I hate NSTP. I never knew I could hate a subject(not even a subject) so much. I'm going to go nuts if I don't pass that. UGH.
I feel kind of envious with my other batchmates. I mean, they're going in to their 3rd year next sem and I'm still going to my 2nd. It's kind of a bummer for me. I'm so behind in many ways. They're gonna graduate soon and I have 4 more years to go. Plus I'm going to take my masters after I graduate. I don't want to think too much about it. I just wanna enjoy my student life for now. hahaha.

Okay. I guess that's it. Wow. This is so nonesense. hahaha. Kbye :D

Summer Rain

Hi guys, it's been a long time since I posted. Really long time. Finally the stress and pressure is over and I made it to St. Scholastica's College for a year now! I can't believe a school year has passed, it feels so weird but nice. Time really flies sooo fast.

In my experience in St. Scho, I learned a lot and met a lot of nice people! I think I have changed a little through out the school year. I became less lazy, I started thinking about other people in terms of their talents and attitudes, I'm becoming less passive too. I'm so happy to have met great friends in school, they make bad times seem worthwhile. Hideki's going back to Japan for good now, that's quite sad for us. I learned a lot from Deki, I hope he does good in Japan. I will surely miss him. hahaha

I now know what to do in the next school year. I must not make minor subjects major. It's really hard to find time to practice if I do that. And I must really practice whenever I can! So yeah, I'm excited for the next sem. I will show them what I can do, that I can also be good in piano. I will also improve on my confidence cause it's messing up with my talent in piano, I can't be the best I can if I'm so shy. hehehe. I must be the performer! hehehe

So this summer, I'm not going home yet. I shall practice piano so I'll be advance! hahaha.